4 august [1am]
Sir you are so very unreachable … this is not about the soul that is 
imprisoned in the usual so-called distractions : who cares about those
… but about sitting in the dark and waiting for your noble type kindness
which she even can’t remember in her sorry state
— if Jacob only knew the nature of your love .. your incredible kindness ,
respecting the soul , making the soul to honour you back for that …
but it’s a mess Sir and it won’t get better until you act   
… it is that barrage called daily life , coupled with the barrage
of Esau’s neverending schemes , making that the soul does
nothing else but say ‘no’ all day long , not wanting to be captured
by all the Nonsense yet incapable to see anything of your kindness