.. after the horrible job to have to write that log , the evening ,
waking up in the middle of the night only to know ‘Him feeling sad’ ,
which never was the intention — but it’s us at breaking point ;
this morning ,
for hours hopelessly trying to think how to get through the next year ,
perhaps one more time “the 12 + 3 days” could be affirmed ,
if any phrase would show containing “fifteen”
[though we’ll need to drop the ‘three days darkness’ until the Star returns ,
drop the three days of sealing ,
and have Aaron wait at the tabernacle entry until ‘the fifteenth day’ ] :
 
    [Jn.11 ; in the alleged ‘resurrection of Lazarus’ :] 
    (17-18)
   “Then when Jesus came, he found that he had [lain]  in the grave four days already. 
    Now Bethany was nigh unto Jerusalem, about fifteen furlongs off:”
    here ,
    especially the second line is so debile it *has* to cover up something ,
    and the mirror can have been Galatians 1 ,
    (18)
  “Then after >three years I went up to Jerusalem to see Peter, and abode with him fifteen days.” ,
    where
    the intent of both may have been ‘wait three days and return at the fifteenth day’ ,
    where “abide” as well as “lain in the grave” can be Esau’s version of “waiting” , no ; 
 
now please ,
if we keep “the fifteenth day” we need a description of that ,
for example “the full moon” [+a mentioned feast ?]  when Eden starts ,
    (Jn.11:18)
    (after ? the fourth=third day,)
   ‘[=when]  it will be – [..]  bethany=Booths (?)                                                                               [as ‘final day’ ?] 
    b
    (and-) the – jerusalem=moon (hierousoluma=seléné) – (has become) near=full (eggus=gemô)
    c
    as – from=the – fifteenth – stadia=day’ ,                                       [still counted from the first 12 days]   
perhaps insane ,
but let’s try Galatians 1 ,
    (18)
    (at Damascus=Booths,)                                                                       [instead of ‘Bethany’ now ‘Damascus’] 
    ‘as – after – three – years=days 
     b
     (when-) into=the – jerusalem=moon (‘see above’) – (will be) came=full ,
     c
     (the-) peter=trumpet (PetroS=SalPigx) – (will) see=sound                      [or why mention ‘Peter’ ?] 
     d
     and – I=he (will) stay=gather – [..]  him=them – (at the-) fifteenth – day’ ;    
 
     in this case ,
     we still are in line with  “the trumpet at the third day” as in the Jericho fall , 
     even , and admittedly , we don’t know what to do with the “hindered Star theme” now ;
     but who know the “delay” was not about ‘the star’ but ‘concerning us’ ?
 
                                                the ‘Lazarus resurrected’ (John 11)

 
… this corrupt section is extremely dangerous to interpret , in our situation now ,
    because considered the several shown ‘numbers’ (also as ‘dates’) the chance that 
    it explained our ’12 days + 3 days’ or “the restoration of the Scroll theme” is 50-50 ,
    and it truly is very difficult to see which one was intended here ;
 
    perhaps – knowing Esau – the main theme may not have been ‘the Scroll’ 
    but “the remnant” (144) because of the root ‘Lazarus’  (LAzaros=hypoLeimA) , 
    combined with “the raising up four=three days late” but you immediately feel how
    the “remnant coming into being when the sons restore the scroll” is also possible ; 
    however ,
    the ‘amount of numbers (‘dates’)’ in this section is so large that it seems to surpass
    the amount of numbers needed for ‘the restoration of the scroll theme’ which needs
    the numbers ‘7’ (jubilee year of declaring the scroll) and 49 (scroll accepted) 
    perhaps together with a ‘7’ years restoration of the scroll , 
    combined with the prevalent “dying – yet being resurrected” theme here ;
 
    so that , because of the ‘Lazarus’ root and the fact that previous John chapters had
    explained ‘the 12-days Atonement’ (-see page) this story *may* have told the end ,
    focusing on the three days (-if true) áfter those twelve days :
    below is an overview of the shown key words in the ‘Lazarus’ story :
 

   … in our opinion the (144) “died publicly (‘officially’)” is important 
   especially in relation to the “died with Him” (in 16) because it sustains the link 
   between Him and the 144 about ‘the three days’ which we saw before and have
   nót interpreted wrongly ; where the “lose heart” *may* tell about these three days ;
 
   though messy also a falsification is possible : 
 
   the ‘restoring the Scroll’ possibility :
 
   (6) ‘abode – two  -days’                                                  ‘restore (the scroll) – for seven – years’ (?)
   (9) ‘are – 12 – hours – a day’                                        ‘(every-) seventh – year – as a jubilee’ (?)
   (16) ‘didymus (two, double)’                                        ?
   (17) ‘four – days’                                                                 ‘(declare at-) the day of – unleavened’ (?)
   (18) ‘fifteen – stadia’                                                        ‘(accept the scroll at-) the day of Weeks’ (?)
 
   this is our curse – that cursed Esau left us ,
   having to fight for every word , for every expression , for every phrase ,
   to try understand what was the intent of the original lines
 

you never be angry with us , your Majesty
we never did anything else as wanting to understand you 
taking you serious all the way
it’s just that the times when finding and seeing the next possible root
and feeling your smile when the line started making sense
feels like ages ago 
and we’re really at the end of our capabilities and power
if you won’t step in now ,
things will get so disastrous … so impossible , it’s fearful to think of
don’t let that happen please
say anything you want to us —- but get us out