[dec.27:] therefore it’s a log to can also contain nonsensical things —
in the dream arriving to a place in the East [other reality] at a type train
tank wagon , bright blue , of 18 (?) sections and prepared by some guys
from this country ; it looked desirable and I wanted to have the machine
but then found out and saw it was rather pathetic : it did nothing more but
burn weed on a small road however leaving two clean tyre tracks
the point is the ’18’ and the ‘uselessness’.. not that they are ‘days’ so that
after the about 10-11 days we still have to go anóther week that must be
crossed – as “the path” – if the 70 days started áfter the week of Atonement …
drinking tonight after a whole dark week and weird headaches yet trying to
stay Sane and not starting about EMF as possible reasons [-for previous
log sounds more probable] and tomorrow attempting another chapter …
december 25
rewrote intro to page yet lines 22-33 refuse to run in spite of staring at them
for two days now ; though the theme must be ‘Jacob physically dies’ while
the closing is about those ‘watchmen’ pastors
they may not run because of again another downturn having started —
it’s almost as if a terminal degrading process has to run its course till the end
instead of being expectant and glad that our time is over soon – IF indeed we
| are on the right track and understood His intent but now , that degrading only adds to the shame , when that tiny observing consciousness that was the only thing left is going blind .. and though she still searches Him outthere and waits for any word or touch it is to no avail while the input to (do) the texts seems to have stopped ; it’s all as grey and cold & silent like the weather outside even ‘the pregnant woman’ example as in Isaiah would fit : nine months after declaring the scroll ; but how awful now with only 14 days to go … |
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[dec.26 :] pondering it – the mind does not ‘store anything’ , right , but instead
is working like an antenna , caching info from that consciousness blanket that
is over the world … isn’t it possible that the type impulses in that blanket
as ‘the helpful reasonings the soul needs concerning belief’ starts lacking in it ,
until it will be filtered out — in a similar way how the Spirit has been withdrawn ?
and perhaps that process has started now .. ?
it sounds possible : if our time line is valid ofcourse .. please ponder …
