july 3 [8pm]
… so this one turned out empty .
please ,
ten or so days ago , I was going into the earth , into a huge cave ,
from earth’ s surface of endless babbling down
and saw the different types of soil while descending
the massive half dark cave felt like an inbetween-realm of sorts,
for at the far end was Heaven — but at the other side of the wall ;
then I saw fetters , six or so ,
tied to the pathetic small consciousness that I am now ,
stretching to several directions and held by large serpent-demons
though I couldn’t see their figures
    I knew this is our horrible situation ,
forget all the babbling at the surface ,
yet even you & we with all our Legal right are hopelessly imprisoned
unless our deity will act
… but his total silence and non-presence is … utterly baffling
as a situation bordering Insanity — or has crossed it already
hope for the next couple of days ?
about 1%