june 18 [8pm]
.. so you see it was good to be , prudent , to not have us totally crushed
in the pattern of disappointments going on for at least the past 1,5 years now ;
however — we’re about to give up breaking down this iron wall with bare hands
as a neverending Sisyphus job within this fkn open air asylum here 
if we cannot do it – in spite of all the themes we learned – no one can .
so , this is the situation :
every next day means more danger 
that some are falling out of the 144 — just by sheer pressure and circumstances ;
it’s not good , it’s an alarming mess , at the brink of giving up
and sadly , in this situation it doesn’t matter what our Majesty thinks : 
He could and should have said something — but didn’t ; fine , His choice ,
but it leaves you & we with this dangerous situation that is to implode …
because what if YOU & WE give up ? — then there be no 144 whatsoever
He is playing a very dangerous game
for just how fkn much one can demand from your servants ? what red line ?
this is not good … not good at all … you please tell whether that’s true or not …
and there’s no ‘next date’ yet ,
apart from if we even WANT another endless fkn timeline ,
while Esau – and Adam – are warring us (in our face)
and we’re the only ones that see : what would Jacob and his haughty pastors
with their truck-sized Egos ever understand what is goin’ on