march 15
… it makes perfect sense that He ordered the scroll to be declared
every seven years , not only for legal continuancy but also because
people simply would forgét the (eden-) covenant , while ‘seven years’ 
would be short enough to remember any significant changes in her ;
however — these days prove that the ‘forgetting factor’ in theory could 
even happen to you & we who became so very familiar with the text :
if through evil circumstances the scroll would become at distance long 
enough time for us …
these are the ponderings after another series of spirit-killing days
[though the result of the renovation is getting very pretty] into a strange 
sadness for Jacob — it’s true that the last years we lost care for him
even though you & we are his sons and daughters , but only due to the
enormous pressure turning it into a case of “either he — or we survive” ;
yet his world truely is a massive open prison only shallowly decorated with
an invented ‘sense of purpose’ directed by pastors who neither have any
idea and are but repeating Esau’s prison guidelines ……..
the only help ,
is knowing that it still needs one week before returning to the dear Scroll 
to sense Life again (how true is the last posted Romans chapter !) ,
but to be fair everything about our Passover date became a haze .. in spite
of everything we found it totally depends on Him if our date will come to pass
and there is nothing left for us but to keep pleading Him that it will
in closing ,
a weird vivid dream about “our remnant being in danger” — a part of them
had investigated the wrong things with the wrong people and I was waiting
for them to appear to me but fearing they had turned into raging zombies 
(as other ones that had contact with those wrong ideas) …
don’t forget that Esau is still working to sabotage us , please continue to
plead Him that all of us 144 remain complete
    your Majesty always forgive us , please .. 40+ days still … even wé all
    would fail if you will not protect us , you be our memory and our hope ,
    we knew that we would arrive unto you completely shattered ,
    that’s all okay as long you will stand at the finishline in 40 days