september 3
[final review of the books Joel , Malachi and Jonah — in top bar] 
because anyway we need a serious clean-up after the base 10 theme ;
after pleading Him last night — and with respect — 
but now seeing that also today went by empty ,
I cannot start telling you how I’m trembling of disappointment and hurt ,
and under that neverending and endless iron murderous Silence
     the awful option looms ,
of the 40 being part of the Fall feasts as base-4 connected to those ,
perhaps like the 10 X 7 was related to the Spring feasts ,
but that would land us at the end of November perhaps December  —
it’s all too horrible to think of
no solid connection and another endless 3 months without guarantee ..
what fresh hell is this again ?
what would happen if this time we decide to NOT sit it out anymore ?
and how the FK we’re supposed to survive this ?
without any Life, in constant threat, and this murderous Silence ?
a thousand Traps we evaded
yet we would fall in the final one
as Esau showed how the remnant [the ‘pushovers’] wouldn’t succeed ,
as a too long way from home …