the 40th day — standing at the edge of the abyss
last year ,
we finally got to the most important theme
as the ten month year of the house of Eden
per her base-10 ,
which Adam sold to the nations of demons ,
that made the current 12 month year from it
| but the concept was not finished because also the base-4 belonged to this , – as the four veils of dew covering the land , represented by the four living-animals aka the four cherubim in the throne room by the seven years famine in earthly Egypt and the ten plagues in matrix-Egypt , we came to a 70 days for the Spring feasts followed by another 40 for the four winds , making Acceptance (Weeks) to be the 70th plus 40 days as the feast of Trumpets — yet this final day passed by empty leaving us totally shattered beyond belief |
leading us to base 10 of Eden |
… this is incredibly hard to take , because we are not “just doing something” ,
but seriously have fought to understand the intended main themes in the Scroll ,
and the ’70 days’ plus 40 per the people wandering forty [years] in the desert
following as punishment for rejecting the ten month Eden year
had us interpret a time frame of seventy days + forty days
… yet as a concept that turned out empty the past week
though nothing has happened , we cannot give up base 10 and base 4 ,
because their existence is too solid next to the sacred base 7 ,
but if the most logical combination of ’70 days plus another 40′ didn’t work out ,
this concept may be happening only next year ,
yet we are too exhausted to continue for another twelve endless months
perhaps the combination was another ,
like ’70’ for the Spring feasts and ’40’ for the Fall ones ,
but this would break the continuity of the theme and somehow feels off ,
while the date would land us end December , a horrible four months away ,
another endless and lifeless hell to have to go through — and no guarantee ;
in fact ,
it’s not even sure that next year could happen anything ,
considering the murderous iron Silence and deliberate absence of our deity
therefore seriously considering to end it ,
for we are fucking tired of bearing the the torture of the final stage of cancer ,
our roof constantly being threatened , and harassed by Esau’s EMF gadgets ,
while he consistently blacklists the site and attacks it ,
and no anchor in the foreseeable future with only this murderous silence
but this would mean that Eden will never be restored
and that therefore Jacob — the souls imprisoned on this earth —
in that case just as well can be destroyed , as our deity has threatened ;
which would make Hell our next stop
so that the proverbial rock and a hard place is a horrible understatement :
there is no escape …
the Legal right by the found themes cannot be transferred
— to whom then of Jacob all talking sorcery because of their dear KJV ? —
and neither would it be rightful to take it away from you and we ,
so that the deity has to do it with us , however he dislikes us ;
remembering the first two years , learning and comparing the root words ,
a job bordering insanity for the mind would break ,
then going through multiple universes each time for a certain theme ,
and just look how we found all of them ,
including our pretty Originals that cried when we remembered them …
while so often in the past years ,
when reading the text trying to make Sense of it ,
that silent kind voice came saying ‘look at the next root’ ,
an unspeakable experience ,
and the concept “they will restore the scroll because they listened to me”
opposed to the fathers which produced that KJV from Esau’s fairy-tales
proved to be 100% true
so where did you go then please our dear Majesty ..?
all the dying even for the final base 4 theme , it’s all okay , and you know ,
but the ultimate horror is this desolation without your voice and presence ,
without any life left to can bear the days ,
having to make our own food to not starve by the nonsense of Jacob ,
constantly waiting for the day you deliver us and the little ones ,
fighting to understand every theme you wanted us to ,
as complete and pretty as possible —
where did you go please ? do you really hate us that much .. ?
Esau enjoyed the failure of the remnant already forty years ago ,
impersonating us as the ones saying “it’s a long way from home”
and “shooting stars” as trying to reach the impossible
[and note the serpent-son with kippah walking through the scene]
and had us ending up in … a cave , of all places :
a thousand traps we evaded — yet we fall in the last one Majesty ?
september 8
after discussing the problem together the situation is rather hopeless ,
– there is no Date in the foreseeable future , it can be anything , even next year
– the relation with the deity is completely broken
it’s more easy trying to move an unwilling bulldozer with bare hands , as he
– the problem is not ‘killing us’ , for who cares about this ape ,
but the risk that Eden will never be restored for you & we carry all the Legal ,
which is a serious argument to not do it
– it all [again] casts doubts on the found base 10
even we don’t want to give that up and will search mercilessly to confirm her
what is happening now
is of an unheard cruelty
and this by our own deity and that murderous revolting unjustified Silence
everything is broken
a wound that will never heal
not even in a restored Eden
fkn endless days forced to bear without life without hope and without power