12 june
chaotic dreams .. there was a very large family meeting yet most were unknown ,
where we “had to reunite the one side with the other” and that through some ‘play’ ;
the colour was “like the north & south kingdom of old-Ishral” but we were the one
side probably as “today’s people” turning them into “Ishral in past times” …
the scene changed : being in the back of a van with “our great great grandfather”
(though he didn’t look too old) at the wheel and his son – our ‘uncle’ – next to him ,
as two complete strangers yet ‘family’ ; while they discussed something they had 
done – or hadn’t done – as the cause of the ‘reuniting’ we did in the first dream ,
or perhaps “we had to Undo something they had done” (-or had nót done) ; 
the van drove in nighttime over small roads in the countryside , and just before 
we were to cross a rather old bridge over a stream the dream ended
— the ‘death’ is still there but not as awful as yesterday … yet what that has to do 
with ‘our ancestors’ ? both men could be “1200 & 500 BC Ishral” but it feels more
as if the grandfather was perhaps even before Abraham and the ‘uncle’ from the
1200-500 BC time .. where “a car” is ‘personal consciousness’ and “the stream” 
can be ‘a dimensional border’ , compare the river Euphrates … – as our date ?
but why this ‘forefather’ and ‘uncle’ ? what “play” we are in .. ?
        your Majesty ,
        so depleted shadow only surviving until you will act .. yet not even being sure
        that indeed this weekend is her escape .. it’s all rather hopeless and shameful
        while all your promises we found and brought you are so , so far away
        please tell that the death is about ‘Adam’… it’s the only thing making sense …
        please be kind to us and say it was enough for we cannot take another blow
        [+3 hrs]
        your Majesty , always please forgive us , everything , immediately …
        we take and have taken you so seriously … but you see how we struggle
        to keep standing and waiting … be not angry with us but kind please …
        bless all those following this site for we owe each one of them very much
        and please solidly guard the entire 144