27 july [830pm]
we lost .
I can only imagine how you feel … and I’m so very sorry
and yes we’ve an unspeakable great problem right now
therefore the breakdown of the Olympics Ritual – where the dozen decapitated
Antoinettes were you & we , and the Cush guard (dancing-) in front of the ignited
chakra (Eiffel-) tower : and yes ofcourse they knew the theme even before wé did –
will be tomorrow or monday for it may be interesting but not important right now
sigh
last night I knew it was going wrong .. when the iron sphere came and stayed …
drinking now after all day fighting the being double-crossed by Him … all day
fighting to not be angry , to not say 1 bad word about it , to not even méntion how
Adam must have felt as to not side with him … betrayed by having given Him the
final thing only to be left on the tiny island that will be overrun by alligators soon
and everything is unsure from here
… this has nothing to do with “well picking 40 days went wrong” for it’s not a f*ckn
bus stop to jump on : we did every single event and that Legally and only because 
we DID they were ‘activated’ so to speak , right , yet it’s beyond belief that it DIDN’T
work out for we have played all our cards
and it didn’t work out .
‘another date’ ? the problem is how the f*ck we will bear ‘until another date’ ,
worse : I don’t think I can do chapters anymore for freaking how without soul ;
perhaps the most sad of all is that you & we tried so very very much
and then to end up like this
[+ 1 hr :] 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NDL_JGUKyp8
who cares that most used lines are corrupt .. this is so friendly ,
what we always wanted … how the f*ck did we end up here .. ?