july 28
damage assessment
so we started another round in this desolation called ‘this world’
with its events and news so shallow that only complete Zombies enjoy them
[-which sadly is the majority] , assessing the situation with a mixture of anger ,
hopelessness and utter bafflement since He left us here
no we don’t forget those of us in continual physical pain that also fear another
day spending most of the time to get on top for a moment .. we don’t forget …
how exceedingly horrible —
still trying to understand why ‘the 40+ days’ apparently was Off … and how come
that so many themes we got spot on while this remains such an impossible one …
and what we do now ? IF we keep ‘the 40 days’ haven’t we imprisoned ourselves
for another long year ? or should we try the – unlikely – “four months” extra until
Trumpets c.q Atonement as another desert impossible to cross ..?
we tried so incredibly hard .. why are You doing this to us ?
sure : the 40 days was an educated guess .. but so was the find of declaring the
scroll at Unleavened and her acceptation on Weeks … it all were ‘ideas’ at first
then confirmed in the text … and perhaps we overplayed our hand with the forty
days but it made contextual Sense … either way we’re in deep trouble right now …
and we’re completely alone ….to paint you the picture : millions upon millions of
demons – in Mystery-Babylon , inside earth , floating upon earth waiting for us to
fail and be erased …; millions of heathen animal souls upon earth serving those ,
while all of Jacob on earth has gone down hook line & sinker :
we’re the only ones as small group still standing
surely that must be how Heaven looks at it , as well as all the disciples and first
christians that carried us , that were so overjoyed when they saw us starting the
scroll but now are concerned seeing our breaking point
if you & we fail then everything failed .. how in the world is it possible that we
declared every required theme rightly yet then we would perish at the closing ?
… please – just to show what millions we’re up against : in 2004 something like
a ‘window’ opened up 2 ft in front of me , and a head engulfed in flames stared at
me but full of devious hate … I didn’t even understand what I saw but only until
later when I realized it was “a locust”, the same bulging eyes , small mouth …
ofcourse I never understood … 20+ years later in the year of starting the Scroll
at dawn appeared ‘the Ammon sons’ in royal capes wrapped around themselves
[-but it can have been ‘wings’] engaged in a heated discussion …
we’re in a war on different fronts .. with different groups of entities … that all want
to have us fail … and at this specific point in time “for us to give up” …
there’s so much more to tell but right now we need a miracle , please …
an outright miracle , showing us what is next and what we can hope for , a legal
intervention simply because we went by the book – pun – but have stumbled
upon an unforeseen — and instinct tells ‘an illegal’ ! – blockage …
therefore I beg you in spite of exhaustion do please plead Him what’s going on ,
it’s impossible that we would NOT find what is happening ,
with very much respect , yours ,
