6 june [8pm]
posted : 2nd half Gen.4 : Adam chooses against us ….
… sick today and not only because of the drinking — Esau has spun out the
Cain story which was but a side-issue to cover up the main subject : Adam ; 
and diving into the words of this so totally corrupted chapter it is nothing
short of a fckn Greek Tragedy what has happened here .. yes Adam became
a Monster by which he did but there are so many haunting questions here :
did he not even feel a fraction of hope – as the possibility that everything would 
be allright again if he chose to return ?  
he could have had sons — you & we — who would have gone through the fire 
for him [what a strange pun again] yet he chose against us and murdered us … 
and yes you have the Legal right to tell him this , even it may feel a bit strange
at first to say that to him … 
in retrieving the text , God MUST have told him to not proceed and instead return ,
which the restored section indeed so narrates : so why did you do it , man ?
why you killed numerous so beautiful beings that are your own fckn people ?
never ever thinking of us but only to keep your presumed pride alive ?
[+1 hr :]
so what are we then ?
we could call God ‘our Father’ and in a way that is true ,
but technically only Christ can use that title since we are different beings
[while the “abba” in NT is corrupt ofcourse] ;
then what are we – in order to not be orphans ?
are we both sons and fathers .. ?
perhaps ‘Abraham’ and ‘Jacob’ (etc) could be ‘our fathers’
yet it all feels very … lonely …