january 6 … the 70th day just started …   added : paragraphs & titles in several chapters , updated pinned section also the one in top ; last evening wanting to shower and plead but ended up drinking until now  —         because of this awful filthy ape burden that         even blocks our access to you our Majesty ,         apart from it being a deep insult to you ;

        cursed ten times over be that evil Adam figure having imprisoned us like this ,
        inside the most debile vessel that ever existed , keeping us away from you
        through its very nature — we understand you cannot look at us , Jacob , for
        we barely have courage to face our own hopeless situation ; however it was
        not our fault your Majesty .. and the road back to you killed everything of us
        so that only a pair of blind observing eyes remained of us … — a decade ago
        standing upon a mountain looking into the deep valley below the absolute
        sureness came “that you would restore everything : but without any help of
        human – of Jacob – for that would only taint your work” .. and that is true :
        you devised the entire traject from the restored scroll until your to be garden ;
        then you please have mercy on your little beings that tried so hard ,
        don’t say we have to wait after this another year because it will murder us ,
        breathlessly we wait your decision in 24 hours …
        [1/7 0.30pm]
        we would like to protect you
        you know very well how that is meant — not that you need it ,
        but because you are kind and allow – and enjoy – that concept
        as the positioning of the tribes around the tabernacle