january 5 [830pm]
posted : Is 61-62 [virtually all] : the seven Torches
… hoping that both most important themes – the ‘covenant of return’ and the
Dedication theme – came out well enough while it had to be posted before
this Tuesday ; intro & fulltext is also there yet the closing ‘corner-stone’ 
section still refuses because totally corrupted [-but not crucial] 
     this week , your Majesty , and still nothing of a confirmation .. nothing ..
     friday night & next morning there was some hope cause you could
     come nearer — then this abyss of today : it’s not doable , we don’t have
     the energy anymore to live between this amount of hope and fear ,
     hope because of everything so far , fear because of another year