[july 28] [8pm]
this is the end of the road —— we won’t get over this one .
not another endless lousy year .
Either the deity wants to get us out – or not, Looks like not .
july 27 [book Jonah : ’40 more days … ‘  [see below]
july 26 [9pm]
posted : Mt.4 : the 40 day ‘temptation’ is the consecration of the 144
… the page (started two weeks ago) is a gem with the same buildup as in
OT and reading very pleasantly now ;
your Majesty ,
it was no blackmail yesterday you know that , but if ’40 days’ are not literal
which per context would make no sense then what we do please if you will
nót act tomorrow .. ?
this situation is so unreal … and with permission the most flabbergasting
is why you would not give some indication for it is so unlike you …
do decide that it was enough please
[july 27] [730pm]
… third day no alcohol .. being attentive , this morning from 9 a deep
nervousness started but faded after an hour – yet since it had no colour
it’s useless and at this time just exhausted and disappointed
today ,
searching to glue one more day to our time window ,
the line “40 more days and Nineveh will be overturned” from the book
Jonah that we knew is Esau’s toddler story came in another light :
because of ‘booths’ (in ch.4) and this line (in 3) it must have been like
Ex.32-33 about ‘the 7 feasts’ — cut-out from anóther larger book ;
where ‘Nineveh – overturn’ was surely ‘Atonement’ (haphak=kaphar)
and looking at the buildup it resembles very much the Exodus one ;
as “40 more days until the appointed time of Atonement” being
the plus one more day : so in theory we’ve tomorrow still …
little hope but let’s see please