[theme]  : prayer

 
your Majesty , please hear 
because if you refuse to , which you might , it’s hopeless to try phrase unto you 
for in the past .. months , but feeling like forever , there’s not much contact with you
since there remained nothing anymore that can speak
the soul gone for almost two years now
but now also that tiny consciousness that somehow survived that
until nothing remained but .. some small ‘will’ still remembering the direction to go
yet helpless against this awful ape she is imprisoned in
while having to withstand the idiotic nothingness of this world
so that too often ‘to drink’ something is the only way to have some relief
which ofcourse in turn doesn’t help finding back any contact with you
the only thing that helps ,
is finding what we were supposed to ,
and the both main themes during the past months truly are remarkable ,
though also these costed going through a gazillion universes ,
and we’re exhausted
 
you gave some hope past Thursday – out of the blue
by being closer when preparing the ‘wheat in the Gospels’ theme page
strengthening that the subject indeed is valid
and hence we wait for Unleavened — in 21 days ,
but are .. paralyzed because of the previous times of disappointment 
and have but little courage to hope that this time will be different ,
even in spite of this important theme right now : we thought that before
 
perhaps what is orchestrated in the world these days relates to this ,
that even they feel how an important turningpoint may have approached ,
and though we don’t give much attention to their occult Ritual ,
this time it will be a serious problem if you would let the date to pass ;
because if after previous disappointments there was no future already ,
but a hopeless continuation simply because there was no other option ,
this time it wil be lethal
 
it’s okay that you pushed us to the limit – if not far beyond that ,
because it is true that we never would have found these two themes
if it hadn’t been for total exhaustion and wondering what was wrong ,
since we always knew that the journey was about ‘collecting themes’ ;
and now ,
thinking to have read that indeed ‘the wheat’ is the final one ,
even after the floor last December which appeared to be the one , 
we do have a small hope that you will end it 
 
then you please also guard your 70,000 sons and daughters 
for we will have won nothing if their number is incomplete ,
apart from the fact that they must be totally exhausted as well ,
or perhaps even more — for they don’t know about the background ..
and considering Jacob ,
ofcourse they are our own family , it’s just that we have no energy anymore
to fight the sorcery imposed upon them by that evil scroll , making many of them ugly ,
yet no less ugly as we were before you pushed us out of that prison of darkness ,
so that this theme to us is rather complicated and compromising ;
however , it’s just the fatigue that has us caring less about him these days ,
because it is either him or us — and if we give up he is done
 
therefore , please ,
it’s okay how everything happened ,
also the days that the soul was about to drown into oblivion ,
pleading you that she agreed on condition that you will make everything new ,
be her memory , return her somehow , and restore her in her Original ,
and because she trusted you she let herself sink into the depths
– but these days still is the fallout of that ,
still imprisoned in this shameful ape and it isn’t getting any better ,
not until you will want to change everything
but oh my what a confrontation that will be
having absolutely nothing left yet having to stand in front of you
already feeling the knot in the stomach just thinking of that moment 
 
therefore , please , you be kind to us
do not agree with the thousands of silly thoughts and memories plaguing us
and try forget we ever dwelt in this disgusting ape
not sure how you could do that and perhaps not even sure why you would ,
but there simply is no other solution for us please
we have read your every restored word
and agree with everything you have said
also because we saw it confirmed in every word by your enemies
which is the only and legal thing we can bring to you
and you decide about us please
 
but if you want , make that this Unleavened
for the intro to very dark times has started a month ago