[90+ days still …]
jan 31 [still added] dream
30 january [8pm]
[cont.] posted : Lk.16 : no ‘Lazarus’ but our – final ! – recompence theme
… unexpectedly the eleven lines succeeded amazingly well as phrases that
we have not discovered in NT so far , with a content very positive for us ;
while please note the close relation with the Passover theme indicating that
our seemingly neverending waiting may be over in the first days of May ;
       hoping to see you back in a couple of weeks ,
       please don’t forget to plead Him for all of us 144 
[jan 31] most unusual dream :
… being high up in the atmosphere at a specific 10 km [6,2 miles] ,
standing in a box attached to a ladder – much like the idea of a fire truck
yet the ladder standing upon the earth , and during the whole scene sick
of nerves due to acrophobia that developed only in recent years ;
at this spot in lower space was ‘a bolt’ ,
and we had to secure the tip of the ladder unto it with a nut so that earth’s
surface through the ladder was connected to this place , and the person
to do that was a brave petite female with a name (translated to English)
as ‘scout’ , here having the colour of ‘chief watchman’ ; but interestingly
from old-German SchultheiB ‘someone going over debt’ and immediately
you see the ‘recompense’ theme here …
now — if this latter is involved (and perhaps ‘female’ does that final act
since she has started all of it .. ?) per dream context ‘that place high up’
as ‘just outside the platonic solids surrounding earth’ cóuld be the place
where He will return ….
you please bless all of us 144 that so wait for you , our great Majesty
 

january 27 [continued:] (Lazarus-) the beggar sitting at the door … ofcourse all our 144 are under enormous pressure these days , with quite a lot suffering physical hardship or mental or emotional , we don’t forget that , and is why you & we worked so hard , right , to get all of us Out … yet this ‘dissolving of the soul’ as the trial theme that started at Weeks last year July and appears to have been ‘finalized’ when this 70th day turned out empty is so .. absurd & unprecedented and to be frank scary that it’s almost fascinating… being a minimal consciousness hardly having access to the own mind , as a person

having been reduced to a superficial haze ; I swear often I wonder what ‘alzheimer’ be like .. 
and if not for remembering our progress the past year(-s) and how we still need to wait but
three months – hopefully – this would be the time to panic … yet the only reason why that
little consciousness does not panic is because she wants nothing else but sit near that
closed door , silently hoping & pleading Him who is the only sure thing when everything in
every other reality falls away , that it be opened soon …  
unprecedented .. there’s no documentation about this situation , nothing to hold on to ,
until today (the alleged ‘parable’-) ‘Lazarus the beggar’ seems an option .. because what
óther original theme can it have been ? it will be a hell of a job in this state but worth
trying the next two days before the silent next month
begging you to not give up pleading for all of us 144
and who knows this state is a .. bizarre indication that our date will be after Passover …

january 26 [6pm] 
probable ‘radio silence’ throughout February
… the last time this happened — having to attend to personal circumstances — 
was some five years ago and as it appears now a similar situation is coming up :
simply because “life as most know it” continues and doesn’t care about what we
are doing here , is it not , so that we are forced to attend      —
curiously (or not) this situation comes up after the ’70th day’ disaster just ago ,
where , even after two weeks , the degraded situation is impossible to assess
because of the fundamental change that occurred :
as if everything so far , including He and sweet female , became inaccessible
as ‘at the other side of the door’ — and I use that word cause it féels a door —
while the helpless shattered conscience remained outside of it ,
not any longer having the means ‘to search texts’ to find answers but only 
pressing to that door if she may hear the (lovely) things spoken inside
 
nothing remained [=of consciousness] but a superficial haze combined with
an ape body that she has to push throughout the day to execute the silly 
needs for every task — it’s too bizarre for words and there is no way that in
this state she could understand let alone decipher texts [-that could help
and especially concerning the much needed Passover theme] :
she , that superficial haze , doesn’t feel “that He is angry” – on the contrary , 
she still turns to His direction desiring that massive door is opened to her , 
but there’s nothing she can do but go “with life as most know it” 
 
hoping that you understand ,
hoping that you won’t give up , 
it’s an absolute slaughtering-field outthere : none of all of them preachers
and endtime-talking-heads are trustable for all of them use that cursed KJV
[-and ‘agitating against it (without knowing why) is the same useless] ,
and all. of. them. block. the. return. of. our. Christ. : be sure about that ;
with the exception of you
then please let’s see concerning us how things develop the next weeks

january 22
posted : 1Cor16 : Time Line — and Passover appears an option ..
… utterly corrupted but ‘Weeks’ ‘[Pentecost]’ ‘Firstfruits’ buildup can be valid 
especially since it contains the ‘opening the Door’ & ‘the Trial’ theme ,
and now we need to look for sections that can confirm this one
to be posted : the King of the West on life-support [the inauguration] 
and some other additions since we try this next run also , okay please
        your Majesty … always forgive us , every day , we tried so very hard
        – and still do – and look at all we found for you .. but it’s not easy now
        while dead , and if you knew how horrible it is to know that all the sweet
        things and your kindness seems more unreachable as ever in spite of
        all we knew .. still we hope for you & pleading you it ends in April …

january 16 :  “Judas” — not what you might think
15 january
posted : no ‘let this cup pass’ but ‘the recompense’ [-that Adam refused]
… very interesting & timely both because of the important theme and our date ;
yes this weekend was devastating but the “trial” here may explain what is
happening these days — yesterday when working out the theme I felt help
and I don’t say that easily … it’s rather extensive but this is the start
— btw we’ve just over 100 days still , three months something , 
until the day of Firstfruits which this theme seems to point to …

‘punished the city for blasphemy’ as many vids tell you but Esau needs Jacob 
to agree that “the destruction of Babylon is already happening” per this Ritual ;
—- yet it only complicates our problem ,
refusing to believe that the ’70 days’ concept was wrong , neither the themes ,
nor the Rituals concerning it (-including this one) , it’s an indigestable mystery
why – again – we are left with Nothing … worse , even that small consciousness
that still was left and could speak with Him is broken — it’s a cruel disaster …
the ‘denial of Peter’ could point to Firstfruits in roughly two months , but that 
feels like an emergency-move as well and leaves completely unexplained hów 
then these 70 days are positioned in a time line
a smouldering Trauma .. again another 70 days .. and without any guarantee …

january 9 [below] : this is BAD … — what we are supposed to do ?
january 8 [3pm] 
the ‘[70th day-] upward’ — where we are right now

… after noon pleaded a long time [no trivialities] with Him , how utterly exhausted we are , as having dug a steep tunnel upwards to get out of this hellhole having lost really everything in the process – which is fine – yet the end of it should be there but don’t show ; if He don’t choose to help now it will become a smooth tube having us sink back down through it in unknown lethal depths …  we did everything to follow His reasoning , and also this 70 theme still appears valid — but He must want it or it’s  no good , no things are good unless He desires them

       then looked up the Ezekiel lines for it had félt as being in a tunnel ; though it’s said
       about this sun ‘that it goes down at noon’ perhaps that was metaphorically to show
       the silly thing itself will go dark  or perhaps ‘3pm’ was an option ; but in chapter 12
       Ezekiel has to dig through the wall of his house “in the evening” (-obr) and another
       unknown term is used that can range from ‘twilight’ to ‘darkness’ – yet is also used
       at the covenant with Abraham when the Torch appears …
       it’s impossible to describe this situation – yet you may feel the same – to silently
       watch the next say 6-9 hours pass .. then the window will close : tomorrow does
       not seem an option and neither is ‘adapting the 9/24 theme’ for it’s Too solid ; 
       so that afterwards an entire next year is looming as satanic scenario …
       our Majesty we never ‘set dates’ .. but did , literally , everything by the Book … 
       if we still are wrong , or if you don’t want to , or if the Jubilee is only next year , 
       regardless of these we will slide back but into the abyss for exhaustion …
       and that moment is merely hours away … then please act
[1130pm :] in theory ,
9th    start of 26th at 6pm
10th start of 27th at 6 pm
11th start of 28th at 6 pm
12th start of 29th at 6 pm
13th start of 30th at 6 pm [13th : day of full moon starting 23.20]  
                             31st at 6 end
… stretching it but possible — that we have til 6pm tomorrow …
[january 9] [8pm]
… phrasing carefully — similar day as yesterday but this time feeling as if standing
high up a mountain with a flat top … it was no vision mind you for that’d suggest
something from Him ; but it was my own sensing … you & we as small group 
stood upon that flat top and our others behind us even down the slope ; just as
waiting for Him … in the distance Eve was there – cause she knows , north of her
our Originals – cause they know , and north of thém the Torches – cause they know ;
but exasperating surely hour after hour ticked away 
now , after opening a beer , not sure what to think : the horrible consequence of 
what seems to have been a failed event hasn’t registered yet , however the state 
of being upon that mountain has not left still — it’s all most confusing …
first please : the “open end date” is the greatest problem : yes the 9/24th was 
a closing date [-of the 70 days] but after that it can go anywhere .. He could act
tomorrow , or next week , who knows — but it would be as “without us” since we
simply – and sadly – don’t have the energy anymore to daily wait another strange
turn which we are unable to identify in the scroll , right … 
for us there is no ‘next’ after this passed 9/24 .. nothing to hold on to .. except for 
the awful scenario that we will have to wait till March to redo the entire f*n year … 
which will be impossible to survive and 100% impossible for some of us …
this is the greatest problem , please :
He may not have wanted it 
… everything was so in place – see above , and what He desired from souls ,
namely to walk out of here by fighting to understand what He said , it all seemed
to come together finally : yet nothing happened … for whatever reason (-again) …
and to be frank I’ve no clue what to can do next .. none whatsoever …
 

january 7 [6PM]
posted : ‘the 10 virgins’ : as the Seven Torches [-see Is.61-62 page]

… surprisingly she succeeded extremely well — even though we said that interpreting ‘parables’ too closely is dangerous , but the attempt is because of the important theme right now : just ago officially ‘the 70th day’ has expired but let’s give it a window of an extra 24 hours since we haven’t managed yet to also start a complete and exact full moon calendar ; hoping that you haven’t given up and still plead for all of us

      your Majesty , please ,
      showered early and waiting for you & doing this one today ,
      and though the text is very positive (-for all of us) there is no
      indication that you will act tomorrow – or eventually thursday ;
      we will silently wait for you instead of burdening you with 
      hopes and fears and the guilt of this monstrous ape … 
      please say it’s over , that you forgave us , and act — please

january 6 … the 70th day just started …   added : paragraphs & titles in several chapters , updated pinned section also the one in top ; last evening wanting to shower and plead but ended up drinking until now  —         because of this awful filthy ape burden that         even blocks our access to you our Majesty ,         apart from it being a deep insult to you ;

        cursed ten times over be that evil Adam figure having imprisoned us like this ,
        inside the most debile vessel that ever existed , keeping us away from you
        through its very nature — we understand you cannot look at us , Jacob , for
        we barely have courage to face our own hopeless situation ; however it was
        not our fault your Majesty .. and the road back to you killed everything of us
        so that only a pair of blind observing eyes remained of us … — a decade ago
        standing upon a mountain looking into the deep valley below the absolute
        sureness came “that you would restore everything : but without any help of
        human – of Jacob – for that would only taint your work” .. and that is true :
        you devised the entire traject from the restored scroll until your to be garden ;
        then you please have mercy on your little beings that tried so hard ,
        don’t say we have to wait after this another year because it will murder us ,
        breathlessly we wait your decision in 24 hours …
        [1/7 0.30pm]
        we would like to protect you
        you know very well how that is meant — not that you need it ,
        but because you are kind and allow – and enjoy – that concept
        as the positioning of the tribes around the tabernacle