january 16 :  “Judas” — not what you might think
15 january
posted : no ‘let this cup pass’ but ‘the recompense’ [-that Adam refused]
… very interesting & timely both because of the important theme and our date ;
yes this weekend was devastating but the “trial” here may explain what is
happening these days — yesterday when working out the theme I felt help
and I don’t say that easily … it’s rather extensive but this is the start
— btw we’ve just over 100 days still , three months something , 
until the day of Firstfruits which this theme seems to point to …

‘punished the city for blasphemy’ as many vids tell you but Esau needs Jacob 
to agree that “the destruction of Babylon is already happening” per this Ritual ;
—- yet it only complicates our problem ,
refusing to believe that the ’70 days’ concept was wrong , neither the themes ,
nor the Rituals concerning it (-including this one) , it’s an indigestable mystery
why – again – we are left with Nothing … worse , even that small consciousness
that still was left and could speak with Him is broken — it’s a cruel disaster …
the ‘denial of Peter’ could point to Firstfruits in roughly two months , but that 
feels like an emergency-move as well and leaves completely unexplained hów 
then these 70 days are positioned in a time line
a smouldering Trauma .. again another 70 days .. and without any guarantee …

january 9 [below] : this is BAD … — what we are supposed to do ?
january 8 [3pm] 
the ‘[70th day-] upward’ — where we are right now

… after noon pleaded a long time [no trivialities] with Him , how utterly exhausted we are , as having dug a steep tunnel upwards to get out of this hellhole having lost really everything in the process – which is fine – yet the end of it should be there but don’t show ; if He don’t choose to help now it will become a smooth tube having us sink back down through it in unknown lethal depths …  we did everything to follow His reasoning , and also this 70 theme still appears valid — but He must want it or it’s  no good , no things are good unless He desires them

       then looked up the Ezekiel lines for it had félt as being in a tunnel ; though it’s said
       about this sun ‘that it goes down at noon’ perhaps that was metaphorically to show
       the silly thing itself will go dark  or perhaps ‘3pm’ was an option ; but in chapter 12
       Ezekiel has to dig through the wall of his house “in the evening” (-obr) and another
       unknown term is used that can range from ‘twilight’ to ‘darkness’ – yet is also used
       at the covenant with Abraham when the Torch appears …
       it’s impossible to describe this situation – yet you may feel the same – to silently
       watch the next say 6-9 hours pass .. then the window will close : tomorrow does
       not seem an option and neither is ‘adapting the 9/24 theme’ for it’s Too solid ; 
       so that afterwards an entire next year is looming as satanic scenario …
       our Majesty we never ‘set dates’ .. but did , literally , everything by the Book … 
       if we still are wrong , or if you don’t want to , or if the Jubilee is only next year , 
       regardless of these we will slide back but into the abyss for exhaustion …
       and that moment is merely hours away … then please act
[1130pm :] in theory ,
9th    start of 26th at 6pm
10th start of 27th at 6 pm
11th start of 28th at 6 pm
12th start of 29th at 6 pm
13th start of 30th at 6 pm [13th : day of full moon starting 23.20]  
                             31st at 6 end
… stretching it but possible — that we have til 6pm tomorrow …
[january 9] [8pm]
… phrasing carefully — similar day as yesterday but this time feeling as if standing
high up a mountain with a flat top … it was no vision mind you for that’d suggest
something from Him ; but it was my own sensing … you & we as small group 
stood upon that flat top and our others behind us even down the slope ; just as
waiting for Him … in the distance Eve was there – cause she knows , north of her
our Originals – cause they know , and north of thém the Torches – cause they know ;
but exasperating surely hour after hour ticked away 
now , after opening a beer , not sure what to think : the horrible consequence of 
what seems to have been a failed event hasn’t registered yet , however the state 
of being upon that mountain has not left still — it’s all most confusing …
first please : the “open end date” is the greatest problem : yes the 9/24th was 
a closing date [-of the 70 days] but after that it can go anywhere .. He could act
tomorrow , or next week , who knows — but it would be as “without us” since we
simply – and sadly – don’t have the energy anymore to daily wait another strange
turn which we are unable to identify in the scroll , right … 
for us there is no ‘next’ after this passed 9/24 .. nothing to hold on to .. except for 
the awful scenario that we will have to wait till March to redo the entire f*n year … 
which will be impossible to survive and 100% impossible for some of us …
this is the greatest problem , please :
He may not have wanted it 
… everything was so in place – see above , and what He desired from souls ,
namely to walk out of here by fighting to understand what He said , it all seemed
to come together finally : yet nothing happened … for whatever reason (-again) …
and to be frank I’ve no clue what to can do next .. none whatsoever …
 

january 7 [6PM]
posted : ‘the 10 virgins’ : as the Seven Torches [-see Is.61-62 page]

… surprisingly she succeeded extremely well — even though we said that interpreting ‘parables’ too closely is dangerous , but the attempt is because of the important theme right now : just ago officially ‘the 70th day’ has expired but let’s give it a window of an extra 24 hours since we haven’t managed yet to also start a complete and exact full moon calendar ; hoping that you haven’t given up and still plead for all of us

      your Majesty , please ,
      showered early and waiting for you & doing this one today ,
      and though the text is very positive (-for all of us) there is no
      indication that you will act tomorrow – or eventually thursday ;
      we will silently wait for you instead of burdening you with 
      hopes and fears and the guilt of this monstrous ape … 
      please say it’s over , that you forgave us , and act — please

january 6 … the 70th day just started …   added : paragraphs & titles in several chapters , updated pinned section also the one in top ; last evening wanting to shower and plead but ended up drinking until now  —         because of this awful filthy ape burden that         even blocks our access to you our Majesty ,         apart from it being a deep insult to you ;

        cursed ten times over be that evil Adam figure having imprisoned us like this ,
        inside the most debile vessel that ever existed , keeping us away from you
        through its very nature — we understand you cannot look at us , Jacob , for
        we barely have courage to face our own hopeless situation ; however it was
        not our fault your Majesty .. and the road back to you killed everything of us
        so that only a pair of blind observing eyes remained of us … — a decade ago
        standing upon a mountain looking into the deep valley below the absolute
        sureness came “that you would restore everything : but without any help of
        human – of Jacob – for that would only taint your work” .. and that is true :
        you devised the entire traject from the restored scroll until your to be garden ;
        then you please have mercy on your little beings that tried so hard ,
        don’t say we have to wait after this another year because it will murder us ,
        breathlessly we wait your decision in 24 hours …
        [1/7 0.30pm]
        we would like to protect you
        you know very well how that is meant — not that you need it ,
        but because you are kind and allow – and enjoy – that concept
        as the positioning of the tribes around the tabernacle

january 5 [830pm]
posted : Is 61-62 [virtually all] : the seven Torches
… hoping that both most important themes – the ‘covenant of return’ and the
Dedication theme – came out well enough while it had to be posted before
this Tuesday ; intro & fulltext is also there yet the closing ‘corner-stone’ 
section still refuses because totally corrupted [-but not crucial] 
     this week , your Majesty , and still nothing of a confirmation .. nothing ..
     friday night & next morning there was some hope cause you could
     come nearer — then this abyss of today : it’s not doable , we don’t have
     the energy anymore to live between this amount of hope and fear ,
     hope because of everything so far , fear because of another year

januari 3 [8pm]
posted [pt I] Is.61 : the (female-) 7 Torches & Dedication & the Covenant
… most interesting — tomorrow part II (-too much work to finish now) : it seems
that the Legal closing of our dedication theme is about ‘the Torches’ 
which we have found already but could not connect to this Legal ending
because too corrupted ; this also links to the Covenant with Abraham where
a burning torch passed through both halves of the sacrificial animal    —
please check back tomorrow or at latest sunday
       your Majesty it is true that you still do not indicate what will be in 4 days
       but it feels that you still wanted this to be declared … we tried to come as
       close as possible to how you said it , and it’s for you cause we take no 
       rights from it … but then please hear us and decide it was enough for us
       next week because we’ve been waiting really , really long time for you …

januari 1
posted Mt.13 : the Sower & Tares & Mustard Seed : very interesting
to add : the New Orleans supporting the Doodle 9/25 Ritual

… yesterday the ‘servant who opens’ (‘parable’)  certainly about ‘the door / Atonement 14th’ and eventually ‘the Full moon’ proved too difficult to recompose because impossibly cut-up ; yet this one went surprisingly smooth today  !                   ritual : only ‘a support-Ritual’ to gather energy fór the Doodle theme , hence some linking aspects as the same new-year’s day and hence the figure that ‘welcomes the sunrise’ ; the star , and the drive-in method used by Esau on (christmas-) crowds (Jacob) in Europe the past decade ; let’s hope that the Ritual name of the culprit “the sun of the great religion” means that Esau is afraid it will go Dark ..

december 31 … no one writes 2025 as ’25 but you see Esau made the apostrophe a 9 , so 9 25 within the christmas type star represents his ‘Hanukkah’ great day when his New World Era is to start after our 9 24 date will have failed miserably           our Majesty , please remember how we warred for you ,

please see how we literally lost everything — we need a soul from you ,
another type body from you , a mindset from you , feelings from you 
– then in the form of female as our core – 
and our only hope now is that indeed we crossed those long ’70 days’
that still were required : do please act in a week from now and don’t 
say that this year was but a dry run for we can’t do anymore ..- please