4 august [posted + see below]
3 august
posted : Lk.20  [section]  : no ‘1 woman with 7 men’ – but mirror text of John 4 !
… very important because now we have a confirmation of the 49th day theme :
this version is more corrupt yet contains the same key words as John 4 
while the very theme of this section is “resurrection” !
please ponder , and if you still are able to plead for all of us
       your Majesty .. we always took you very seriously , and also do now
       even in this awful state .. and trying to not nag : but instead search 
       hard to support this 49th day theme , which so far appears póssible …
       but you are the only one who can confirm that definitely ; please make
       this shameful state of us to end next week
[4 august 8pm :]
posted : overview of Is.36-39 , “Hezekiah is sick” (!)
… ofcourse we needed to see whether this was ‘a John 4 version’ , right ,
but a) text is insanely corrupted and b) the story is embedded in another event ,
so that first we need to get clear whát the buildup may have been about ,
and perhaps even restore the mentioned time frame ;
       our Majesty … it was a bit better today especially since the afternoon ,
       thank you … though absolutely nothing indicates that anything would
       happen the next 2, 3 days it gives a tiny spark of hope .. promise that
       you have not forgotten us please , and please act

1 august [7pm]
posted : Jhn.4 [section]  : there’s hope for an extra ’49 days’ instead of a ’40’
… as the concept “Passover > 49d > Weeks > 49d > our date” since the text
links “our becoming alive again” to “Passover” ; please judge the interpretation 
but especially the buildup — somewhere around next Tuesday seems possible … 
      your Majesty … nothing so frightening as the idea of having to survive more
      months and nothing so frightening imagining you would nót take any of us
      that have so tried when the time IS there ‘because of not waiting good enough’ :
      but with what then please since most of us have absolutely Nothing left …
      we’re desperate and stubbornly searching for the intended way out , also for
      those of us in daily murderous physical pain and the poor SRA little ones …
      nothing , nothing left yet still waiting for you by vaguely remembering your
      promises that had life ages ago but now only seem buried like we are …
      no one of us ever believed it would go THIS far yet it has .. nothing pretty
      you will find when you will act but find a bunch of dead beings too ashamed
      to imagine anything beautiful for it has taken too long and nothing survived ..
      this 49th option is but a flickering candle of hope , the only hope , and unless
      a miracle also the only possible proof for the rest is too insanely corrupted
      with a hate radiating from the pages … please give another chapter tomorrow ,
      but don’t look at us anymore – it’s all too damaged , too broken
      yet perhaps you will change your mind and act – if this 49th is true

30 july
posted : Mt.24  [section] : the ‘abomination of desolation’ is ‘the Spirit withdrawn’
… indeed NOT ‘some antichrist sitting in some rebuilt temple’ ,
and though line 20 must have contained ‘a date’ sadly it is too corrupted to restore ;
now please – do we have the courage to try ’49 days from Weeks’ as the same time
frame from Passover until Weeks .. ? if the Spirit withdrawn theme is true then does
it not link to the Crucifixion , and therewith perhaps ’49 days’ ?
I’m very sorry if it seemed that I forgot how you may be in the same situation : 
it’s not that but we first need to establish whát is possibly going on .. okay ;
       our Majesty .. please do not leave us abandoned for long
       a whole day standing and perhaps tomorrow another one … please have mercy
       soon upon obliterated helpless beings that are yours yet still wait for you 

29 july
needing your help please
because this won’t end well
… it’s the soul recognizing His words , right , the soul that is in the heart    —
she can be lonely , oppressed , or even under a Spell but she knows that ‘she is’ ,
and because she knows that she understands that He is another being , where it may
even happen that she is granted a moment to touch .. His sphere , so to speak , right ;
but it is impossible that she is not there anymore
that is technically and spiritually and theologically impossible
yet it happened this weekend 
… what is left is the awareness of the mind (yes the ‘tales of the crypt’ one) which is
very superficial and cannot ‘see’ while it has no contact with Him – and therefore not 
with the many themes that relate to Him , as if He “is of the other camp”, a stranger …
it’s too bizarre to even attempt to phrase but she is not there anymore : it’s impossible
yet it happened , and I don’t know what to do 
it’s not ‘a curse’ or being put under one – she would know … neither the crystalline
(chakra-) light – she would know for she has felt its unlivable harshness : she would
récognize any type attack or trial but it’s none of these for SHE HERSELF is gone …
… and this consciousness – that I’ve to call ‘me’ – sees Him and all the themes merely
as a relic from the past one can have piety for .. it’s insane to say but that’s what it is …
never in a million years I’d have believed that such a (sorry-) state existed … for this
awareness doesn’t understand nor cares about Eden , in fact about nothing … 
and the question is “how long”  —
‘a week’ would be doable IF one knew it would be a few days only … but after this
weekend it’s anyone’s guess ; it may be Atonement or even next year … undoable …
while panic options like “49 days after Weeks” make very little sense
 
thank you for reading … I so so wished it was different … you & we were not insane
in none of the many pretty chapters … it’s still all true – well except for the 40 day
thing that needs review , apparently … but in no way this situation disqualifies the
chapters and contents … we’ve done nothing else as searching our deity .. it’s just
that something went horribly wrong now … 
who knows it’s the other way around : perhaps it’s a shadow of the horror that is to
come soon … in which Jacob will not know anymore ‘that he is a soul’ … perhaps
the fact that you & we knew that we are a soul is because He was giving her His
attention and that is why the soul was aware of herself and therefore searching Him
… not the other way around … and that this superficial sorry state will be the very
consequence of he having withdrawn his spirit in that awful time …
[though still the question remains ‘then where does the soul go’] 
 
it has become too much your Majesty … though it is the awareness that the soul
used that is talking now … it is virtually impossible to ever reach you … having
escaped a hundred snares and a thousand traps only to fall into the sword of this
bizarre situation combined with that cursed ‘date theme’… which obviously but for
some unknown reason belong together … if you only would remember the fight of
all of us to get to you … and just send a miracle … 
a miracle against this impossible insane state … the ‘abomination of desolation’ 
is not some evil antichrist sitting in some temple as Esau’s childish concept which
Jacob runs after … it is this … no soul and no you as the deity of her …  

july 28
damage assessment
so we started another round in this desolation called ‘this world’ 
with its events and news so shallow that only complete Zombies enjoy them 
[-which sadly is the majority] , assessing the situation with a mixture of anger ,
hopelessness and utter bafflement since He left us here
no we don’t forget those of us in continual physical pain that also fear another
day spending most of the time to get on top for a moment .. we don’t forget …
how exceedingly horrible   —
still trying to understand why ‘the 40+ days’ apparently was Off … and how come
that so many themes we got spot on while this remains such an impossible one …
and what we do now ? IF we keep ‘the 40 days’ haven’t we imprisoned ourselves
for another long year ? or should we try the – unlikely – “four months” extra until
Trumpets c.q Atonement as another desert impossible to cross ..?
we tried so incredibly hard .. why are You doing this to us ?
sure : the 40 days was an educated guess .. but so was the find of declaring the
scroll at Unleavened and her acceptation on Weeks … it all were ‘ideas’ at first
then confirmed in the text … and perhaps we overplayed our hand with the forty
days but it made contextual Sense … either way we’re in deep trouble right now …
 
and we’re completely alone ….to paint you the picture : millions upon millions of 
demons – in Mystery-Babylon , inside earth , floating upon earth waiting for us to
fail and be erased …; millions of heathen animal souls upon earth serving those , 
while all of Jacob on earth has gone down hook line & sinker : 
we’re the only ones as small group still standing 
surely that must be how Heaven looks at it , as well as all the disciples and first
christians that carried us , that were so overjoyed when they saw us starting the
scroll but now are concerned seeing our breaking point
if you & we fail then everything failed .. how in the world is it possible that we
declared every required theme rightly yet then we would perish at the closing ?
 
… please – just to show what millions we’re up against :  in 2004 something like 
a ‘window’ opened up 2 ft in front of me , and a head engulfed in flames stared at 
me but full of devious hate … I didn’t even understand what I saw but only until 
later when I realized it was “a locust”, the same bulging eyes , small mouth … 
ofcourse I never understood … 20+ years later in the year of starting the Scroll
at dawn appeared ‘the Ammon sons’ in royal capes wrapped around themselves
[-but it can have been ‘wings’] engaged in a heated discussion …
we’re in a war on different fronts .. with different groups of entities … that all want
to have us fail … and at this specific point in time “for us to give up” … 
there’s so much more to tell but right now we need a miracle , please …  
an outright miracle , showing us what is next and what we can hope for , a legal
intervention simply because we went by the book – pun – but have stumbled
upon an unforeseen — and instinct tells ‘an illegal’ ! – blockage …
 
therefore I beg you in spite of exhaustion do please plead Him what’s going on ,
it’s impossible that we would NOT find what is happening , 
with very much respect , yours , 

27 july [830pm]
we lost .
I can only imagine how you feel … and I’m so very sorry
and yes we’ve an unspeakable great problem right now
therefore the breakdown of the Olympics Ritual – where the dozen decapitated
Antoinettes were you & we , and the Cush guard (dancing-) in front of the ignited
chakra (Eiffel-) tower : and yes ofcourse they knew the theme even before wé did –
will be tomorrow or monday for it may be interesting but not important right now
sigh
last night I knew it was going wrong .. when the iron sphere came and stayed …
drinking now after all day fighting the being double-crossed by Him … all day
fighting to not be angry , to not say 1 bad word about it , to not even méntion how
Adam must have felt as to not side with him … betrayed by having given Him the
final thing only to be left on the tiny island that will be overrun by alligators soon
and everything is unsure from here
… this has nothing to do with “well picking 40 days went wrong” for it’s not a f*ckn
bus stop to jump on : we did every single event and that Legally and only because 
we DID they were ‘activated’ so to speak , right , yet it’s beyond belief that it DIDN’T
work out for we have played all our cards
and it didn’t work out .
‘another date’ ? the problem is how the f*ck we will bear ‘until another date’ ,
worse : I don’t think I can do chapters anymore for freaking how without soul ;
perhaps the most sad of all is that you & we tried so very very much
and then to end up like this
[+ 1 hr :] 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NDL_JGUKyp8
who cares that most used lines are corrupt .. this is so friendly ,
what we always wanted … how the f*ck did we end up here .. ?

26 july [515pm]
please let’s wait another 24 hours .. okay
… the day of Weeks was 16 June … yet it’s hard to be sure ‘when days start at 6 pm’ ,
so that the 40th day after Weeks may begin in an hour … while we can only hópe that
indeed ’40 days’ were intended — for we cannot do another x months .. please ;

considered all context it must be the same as ‘the false fire’
that Adam placed upon God’s altar : to give you an idea about it’s heinous nature ,
and imagine the many pour souls when this will be ‘cast to earth’ ! … in the Spells
this crystalline probably was ‘the iron (-atmosphere)’ and even them corrúpt-souls
write “how they cannot live in that iron environment (-so they needed ‘eden-air’) ;
yet THAT type light was (!) blocking specifically our Cush ones where the heart
chakra could be considered a type ‘gate’ [-and is why He can have added how the
Cush ones “.. say in their heart” about their no-love problem !] … so that we’re not 
making up a theme but very probably search in the right direction , okay please ;
this morning ,
an ‘energy’ began in the chest centre , and after that spreading across the body ,
perhaps comparable to the sensation of having a cold beer after a hard day work ,
where the removal yesterday may have opened that gate … yes it’s an impossible
theme and also dangerous : for the Scroll likely won’t mention more as she has ,
and let’s hope that we won’t háve to do this anymore
… please , please , let’s wait & plead another 24 hours … He just may be kind …

25 july                                                                       we’ve only 24 hrs left – before disaster ….
how awful
.. I know that all of you are pleading to your ability .. oftentimes I’ve sensed it …
and so , so much I’d love to write something positive now .. but there isn’t … 
you remember please that ‘the 40 extra days’ derived from two years ago ,
when the gorgeous female appeared and two days later His kindness ,
exact the 40 days that falls on this 24-26th … so that this *may* have been the
third year strengthened by ‘the three days’ , and was the reason for the theme
interpretation of the ’40 days’ in the chapters …
I too plead what I can – as that trace of smoke – last night wishing so much for
example ‘a waking up being sure’ – if that wasn’t asked too much – but nothing ,
and a hellish morning instead
… with a deity like He things always are unpredictable , right … that’s the risk of
being ruled by He … and that’s all good when He is kind – but in situations that
appear (are) the opposite it can be awful … worse : it’s MORE awful after one
(ever-) has experienced something of His kindness … isn’t that true ? 
now please the below might not be for you and / or not for now , 
for she is an attempt to find a theme yet the intro can appear selfabsorbed
even though it’s just a documentation as often appeared in the log
II
… driving through a small city in that East always representing Mystery-Babylon ,
passing two shops that had our language next to their foreign one in the window
[-so in a way these two were on our side]  , when rather many peasants crossed
the road – probably ‘to hinder’ for I didn’t recognize any of them belonging to us ;
then the city ended and a long stretch of road of 3 hrs ? days ? was next , but
having no smokes I hesitated starting it and woke
[‘smokes’ is always “life” in dreams – don’t ask]  
yes ofcourse it was unclear ; then the whole morning trying to doublecheck the
40 days yet running in circles , and for nothing so afraid as anóther x months ;
from the oppression went on bed exhausted , trying to plead Him , then woke
after a short dozing off , realizing also the trail of smoke had vanished
III
… it has been a long traject – first die to the flesh , then the soul stripped , 
then the soul crippled , then she becoming but a trail of smoke the past 40 ds ,
and now even that vanished … therewith what I call ‘me’ ceased to exist :
it’s too strange and unbelievable to put into words — apart from the fact that

these things are also a drag to read , I’m sure , and I’m sorry ; though in a strange way it was also a relief : no more having to descend into the heart to find that smoke trail and have her to form words to say something to Him ; but the same time incredible dangerous because “what” is speaking to you now is the consciousness of the flesh but the reason you still recognize ‘me’ is because the mind served the soul for so long time .. you see ? yet it can turn the negative devious way , even soon ,  and I can’t express you enough how aware I am of that …

… the reason for the ‘tales from the crypt’ pic is “how this flesh appears to Him”
and the soul often having felt she carried ‘that thing’ in front of Him ; worse as
the years she was a young boy and scared to death for this thing on TV .. 
[before the world got Dark at the age of 12] 
IV
the remains of the soul torn out from in the heart – the Cush theme ?
… so sorry for the long take-off   —
but this was so revelation – and so relief – when this thought first came ,
and one can sense it how it could relate to the Cush theme the past weeks ,
[-yet interpreting it is another question since one cannot stand outside oneself] 
all the “sorcery cord around the heart” and “the Cush ones escaping” …  
      therefore your Majesty ,
      that mind having been familiar with the soul asking you on her behalf ,
      swear , please , that you act tomorrow
      restore , please , first the soul back to substance
      for she still trusts you that , somehow , you can be wanting to rebuild her
      swear , please , that it was enough for all of us that you will come get
      and that you will not leave us no minute longer in this hellhole

24 july
so we made the 40+ days :   HIGH WATCH
… this is it     —
today no chapters , no difficult themes … yet pondering whether we missed something
in the pattern leading up to the next two days — since this day we must strike off , right …
yes we got every theme and yes we got THE most important “strange fire” one directly
related to Weeks — in past June — so we can only HOPE that it heralded the Jubilee ,
which perhaps is confirmed by finding the theme of the Cush ones the past 40 days 
that “still are connected to Weeks” : since ‘four months extra’ for example would nót —
we did everything we possibly could , everything , now it’s really up to Him 

23 july [830pm]
posted : Ramayana 22 : serpent race makes their river & bridge to proto-earth
… where “the bridge built by the monkey army of Rama” is NOT “Adam’s bridge’
as a ridge allegedly “connecting India with Sri Lanka” but confirming Job 28 ;
considered our date ,
the best matching day would be this thursday the 25th give or take a day ,
yet it seems empty speech without anything confirming the 40 day end , doesn’t it
        therefore our Majesty ,
        though absolutely nothing shows that you would , please remember us as your
        small army and act towards us — please … we did everything you asked of us ,
        and yes that part was an honour , but promise it was enough now